Whatever you're doing for a living, drop it right now.
Go off somewhere, completely alone, to some place you've never been, with nothing but a suitcase of clothes, no money, and start all over again in a completely different line of work with nothing in common with what you did before. How long will it be before you get back up to where your were?
When you've done that, a couple of times, you'll understand what I'm talking about.
Since I'm unemployed it's rather hard to try as you describe...though my brother did it once. When the money runs out...I don't know what I'll do.
Try this...alone in a room with just two men who are alternately raping you. They are humiliating you in more ways than just the rape. There are cut out porn pictures on the wall of the most hideous examples of violence towards women that you can imagine. There are guns in the room...your throat is being forced nearly shut with the weight of his arm. You are told repeatedly that you will be killed when they are done with you. Your father is critically ill and you survive but cannot tell anyone. You're sixteen years old.
We cannot compare our suffering. . .God has given us all crosses to bear and I wish that you and I both could feel as Schultzz feels though I suspect I'm closer to it than you...and I can only thank God for that. There is so much pain in the world and Schultzz has outlined a very good way of dealing with it as there is always something to thank God for and nurturing a sense of gratitude changes everything in terms of an outlook on life. I live in one of the most free and prosperous nations on the face of the earth and in human history and I did nothing to deserve it. I have lovely, deeply loving and caring people in my life who help me through every day because without them, I would simply kill myself but I can't bring myself to intentionally hurt another living being and so I can't hurt all of those who love and cherish me...and there are many. We are not at Auschwitz.. .I knew a man who was there and was grateful to be alive. You're a very intelligent man, gifted in many things and being grateful for what you do have is going to make you feel better regardless of your life circumstances. I, more often than not, am not able to feel that gratitude but I try very hard because I know that it fosters in me a sense of perspective about the world that also results in a realization that I have suffered nothing in comparison to the very real suffering that is going on all around me and around the world.